jiajia :)

i think i might need some blood donation.

period.

is drainning me.

even 11 hrs + 1.5hr nap is not enough for me.

i need to catch up on weeekend things tonight. though very much i do not wish to go schoool tmr, but i really dont want KEN to be disappointed. he’s really very nice,and he’s really going all out to want to me to excel.

thank you ken.

ps, and i really told ken(my lecturer that he look like a kid when he wore jeans xp )

im losing interest in studying,

i guess im just like my brother, wanting to quit school at year 2.

really like brother, like sister.

we’re indeed related by blood,

but still my brother got a mere PASS just to get out of school, and wait me? the only way to get our of school, is to quickly CLEAR it as well, but yea, im having the fear of ” you think you know but you’re not really sure if you really know”

i dont want/cant afford to waste another year. i hate that im studying now.

even when im a once HATEEEe to learn IT girl, im actually interested in learning IT. wait i probably dont like the process of using computer language, but im certainty amuse by the outcome. living in a technology world, yet not truly knowing it till now. i hope its not too late.

losing interest , bcos i cant see where im going from this.

wheeee! i finally can blog again,

after being not able to blog for soo long and having to blog via my phoney and it end up not being either uploaded or almost the entire gone.and wait i wrote a whole chunk of words kay.

so yeah, just had a conversation wif didi and im truly disturbed by what he said. the after effect was really bad. and more like a one way conversation =/ okay all i want to do now is to go to bed and forget everything and let tmr be a brand new day. but wait, i want to wait for mama to come back home and ask her how her day was. ;)

im sure there’s bound to have story to hear from her. i so cant wait. bleahh and i didnt get to study at night. sucks. and make me wonder more why many of my classmates are still able to go out and have fun while all struck up at home. with the company of my books. yes i do get lazy and not want to study while at least i dont feel that guilty going out and having fun. yeah, its all in the mind. but i just want to feeel better :P and the fear of failing and not being able to go year 3 or completing my degree in 3 yrs.  yep i know this may sound illogical to you but yeah,im just afraid that even if i can go year 3 what IF i dont clear modules like banking and finance and just bcos of that one module. CHOI if anything happen i cannot graduate. year 2 plays such a crucial part in my life.

i cant wait to graduate

i cant wait to stop studying.

i cant wait to face reality.

i cant wait for freedom.

i cant wait to face the world.

i cant wait to do what i want to do

and lastly,

i cant wait to fulfill my dreams. its all about putting your dreams into reality.

bcos you either fulfill the dreams of others or you fulfill your own.

my mock’s COMPLETED. full mock.but what theres to be happy about?

the REAL thing is coming. in 62 days. so to calcaluate i only have 1 week to study EACH module. or rather master like a QUEEEN. =x i need to more hands and brains.

i need octopus hands and number of brains that octopus hands has. then i’ll be definetely sure to ace it. its not good enough to know that one is willing to work hard. thats not sufficient to do well. but the sad thing is, who can i look for help when i need? well the only one i need to pray and hope for is a macro teacher.

i found one that MAY be able to help me. but im not sure if he is willing to help me. mingkai.i really want vincent soooo sooo badly. want his help sooo bad. i may just be soooooo needy to ask sandra for help. would she have the time and would she helps?

anyway, another thing, ipad2 is OUT already. well in US of cosss. but it doesnt matter. wooo-hooo, and there’s whiteee. i think its gonna be mad pretttty! and there front and back camera, 33% thinner,10hrs battery life, same price as before. and same SIZE YAY! i really doubt my common sense to believe when i was told it would be of the same size as galaxy tab. and to be known as a BIG ipod. well if its just slightly bigger than iphone4 who would then buy both right? 

this is what i saw from the yahoo news “

The device will begin shipping in just over a week, on Friday, March 11, in the U.S., while 26 more overseas countries will get the device on March 25.

However, Singapore was not listed among the 26 countries. Sales of the original iPad in Singapore began on July 23 last year though the tablet was announced on January 27. The iPad 2 will sell at the same starting price of US$499 for the entry-level 16GB Wi-Fi-only model. A similar model of the original iPad is currently sold on the Apple Singapore Online Store for S$728.

so i presume it would be in sg around sept? HEHHEHE. doesnt matter. i’ll see u in may :p

would i be tempted to buy the new ipad2? will SEEE, well at least not for now :) but im surely tempted by the iphone4! i know its abit SLOW or rather VERY Slow =x black or whiteeee?! i can get it straight after my exammm! in may! :D sighpie that clementi mall has stock for iphone4 sitting there waiting for me to buy but i canttt :( i only can recontract in mayyy ;(

when did i starting to like gadget? *wonder*

’ person who says it cannot be done must not interrupt person already doing it”

begins wif a commitment to self-discovery, a curiosity about your potential,and a willingness to acquire the information and skills that will enhance your work.

never underestimate what one can do. not even when the person is young.bcos you’ll be surprised how capable a person is.

just came across a blog. 19 yrs old (1991) joining venture , renting condo in orchard, investing, and being known as succesful.and another 21, diamond shop. impressive uh. im so gonna check out the shop sooon.

okay this is not just the only one, so many younger people starting out at sucha young age, and then again i look back upon myself.

but still gonna take baby step or is it too slow? at least have a dream, thats why i always deem it as important, at least u need to know where you are going. well another is to go for summer work. cultural work exchange, well even though my school doesnt do it for me, i can always do it, but well again, whether im cut out for u anot. :O and if there time and funds to support me. but wait i haven check out enough information on it. YET.

and again, really the more i find out the more interesting it gets, people can be just so interesting. never fail to amused and interest me, just like a child, when everything seems to be just so fascinating. im excited excited about what the future holds.

eXperience Singapore- interesting yep. :)

On this day of your life, Shengjia, we believe God wants you to know … that it’s time to STOP going through the motions of living, and START living. Are you willing to do that now? Or are you going to wait until all life energy drains out of you and your loved ones who are trying to support you at this very moment? You were not born to follow rules and regulations. Living starts with dreaming. So dream, dream friend, and let dreams show you the path to your bliss.

what i found on fb and what i found interesting, okay its the part that my school sucha MONEY EATER. and the best thing is having your school to start asking you for money eevery 2-3 months or so. 

okay, this is just PREPOSTEROUS. i have to pay 214 dollars to attend the graduation ceremony, i.e. i have to *in capitals and italics* - pay money to receive an award that i rightfully earned!!!!!!!!!!

pfft. and u were asking, oh do i want to invite my parents? well thats another 85 dollars.
safe to say im not attending.

 

• • Zara Nizar also i did not like how that letter addressed “dear zara” and the other normal letter was “dear aishath”. come on, there cant even be 200 people in college; at least get our proper names addressed.
  • Zara Nizar though dont tell me that usually grads ARE charged the per head rental/food fee of the ceremony. we’ll consider boycotting our 2012 ceremony too right :D

so yea, it was a outing that went GREAT!

outing wif alex osokin, GAYBORED ( gabriel) , joilyn, shi ming, dong, moon, me and joan! :D

iceskating outing wif many new friends made. all year 3 and singaporean. kekeke. i could recognize all of them except gabriel, who dont remember seeing him before.he’s the most PRO in iceskating and spending half the time wif joilyn “supervising” people esp those in the ring. and we managed to toook alot of photos! SO HAPPY! :D its like the first SF outing wif so many photos taken! i even gave my camera a rest! :D holding hands , pushing each other forward, hugging from the back ( awww MOON is so sweet <3 ) bringing shi ming on a roller coaster( thats what she said) trying to scared dong! oh yes and we laughed that dong is ” ang zhu ma” some korean word pronouce as that. aka aunty :p cos he got himself a perm! ;p

shiming shared about her “zoo” in the farm and about souls. okay im starting to believe it and it seem rather interesting. her “zoo”, triathlon talk. ambitious and interesting girl, i like :) LAN with them, okay dota im superb nooob really dontknow what’s happening and dong had to teach shiming and me how to play. and not forgetting cs too! okay i really still have no idea how to play. l4d2 seems better still. zooombie! kill zombie kill kil kill. im starting to think i really like zombie, be it, resident evil, aftermath, plant vs zombie, l4d2! ALL much love.

a outing that i was late for an hour and almost not want to go, but went simply bcos i kept my promise. bcos it doesnt feel good to be ” fly aeroplane too” school just get better. but sadly they’re all year 3. and i didnt know that year 3 batch had alot of singaporean whereas my batch, year 2, had alot of koreans. :O for the first time after moon and dong left, alex was the only international student, with gabriel, joilyn, shiming, joan all singaporean. and iM SO HAPPY. like we all take for granted to have singaporean friend, but well this time round im not.

oh yes and im rather surprise even with 4 newly made friends, all except dong knew my name. woah and im impressed, whats more with my unprononuable and hard to remember ” shengjia” name. gabriel even commented ” i think the whole school probably knows you, okay maybe at least the whole of CF” okay probably the CF class, ken make me SO POPULAR. all thanks to him. being his all time favourite student, well he gave me motivation and encouragement. but well look im still haven touch it yet. hurry shengjia. wake up. january is coming the crazy year is coming! =x

oh well, so im finally back to school. YEAR 2 :D

it didnt start out that well but at least it ended well :D got to see many of my schoolmates :D meiling,alex,and with hendra who cant stop using the papers to wack my head. HAHAH :) his bestfriend thomas left for another sch, oh well ): at least he’s still in sg, so MAYBE just maybe i will get to see him around :)

so had management accounting class tgt with rongping, one chapter done,and there’s already tutorial to be donee! okay. and i got to klnow ONLY TODAY at 930am when alex told me he’s taking MARKETING. LIKE HUHH. there’s marketing in our school? vincent didnt even gave me the option to choose that. okay at least now i know.so its still not too late. I WANTed marketing, okay maybe after working in emitasia and i realized, violet, scin ciang and sarah taking marketing, so many pple taking marketing, maybe that why its kinda makes me want to take up that tooo. u know, typical singaporean, like to copy cat, follow what others do. =x *guility* so decide to go for the marketing class to see how’s it is. zzzzzz but after the 1st class, i guessed maybe management accounting is more suitable for me? but part of me wants to stay there because of alex and hendra, nice and fun people to entertain me in class :D not to say rongping is not nice, but its just a diff thing.

oh yes oh yesssss. i forgot to mention that i went for the 1130-1pm soci ( jan, april,june intake) simply bcos so that i wouldnt have to go for it on wed only to realize the class is filled with INDIANS AND KOREANS. with everyone talking and knowing each other. and for once i wonder. hmmm maybe bcos they’re yr 3 repeating soci thats why they know each other. thats feeling is just so… EWWWW. okay i shared this with alex and only he told me ” now you finally know how i felt like” i sure do. i never knew going oversea to study would feel this way. helping them to adapt to the culture, making new friends, environment would be so tough. leave alone, i was simply in a classroom of international students, how strong and independent one have to leave their homeland and be oversea. though tough, yet i still want to pursue my dreams. nothing gonna stop me. GO FOR WHAT I WANT :D

saw ivan at bugis four season selling make cake. he’s still the same old boy, FOREVER PLAYING GAME. tsk tsk. when can he ever stop playing games? tskkkkkk! OH YESS AND i SAW ADELINE TODAYYY! :D IN MY SCHOOOl studying law. just a year though but still BETTER than nothing. though we’re never close or its the first time we actually talk. there’s this sense of familiarity,and our communication and alex being so nice to wait for me after school, just simply things like this  brighten up my day. :) :) just hope she enjoys her year of study here :)

thankful for today.

bcos i was slowly and unknowingly turning numb to human relations. yet bcos of today.all this probably will be put to a stop? I HOPE i HOPE. :D

bcos seeing cs,ml,jj today just feels awful.

finally got long awaited time table. but so what? what difference does it make?

first i got HALF the time table, year 2 modules, excluding yr 1 modules like ( soci, bnf, stat1) which some people chose to take in yr instead of yr 1 , wasnt out. so yeah, it was finally out tgt, and guess what.

there’s another 2 diff time table. the time table that rp(my classmate) was seeing was diff from mine. not much diff, but still there’s some slight diff in the classes. okay not just take. they actually put 2 diff classes ( sociology and banking and finances ) on the same timing slot. zzzzz so am i suppose to spilt myself into two ? so oh well to solve the problem i had to go for bnf june intake classes instead of the sept intake. the good thing is luckily i took it before. so yeah it wouldnt be that bad for me.

danny goh is taking rongping and me for management accounting. MAN. he’s the most boring lecturer ever. he’s practically talks to himself. and his notes is really cmi. so chim. what’s more he’s a lecturer coming JUST FOR THE MONEY. when i seek him and asked for some consultation he simply said, ” giving consultation is out of my job, unless you ask the school to arrange ( part time lect are paid hourly) if not i can give u PRIVATE TUITION which cost ( i forgot how much but it was super ex, probably a hundred or something :S)

talking to himself + wordy and boring notes + lecturers are supposed to make difficult modules easy but he did it the other way round :S

oh well, im actually thinking of going back to school JUST to attend management accounting(taught by jason which i intends to see if he’s good) 645-815pm(part time class) rather than to attend danny class. BUT BUT BUT. there’s isnt tutorial class for the part time students, SO all in all i still have to see danny face for tutorial. what’s more different lecturer have different style of teaching, so that means i cant change lecturer. problem isnt solve.if only alan, vincent is here to take us for management accounting and soci,bnf.

and ytd jj was late. for whole 3 hrs. without any explanation and where’s the long awaited sms that ALL OF us were waiting for. tsk.

okay im grumbling sooooooooo soo much, okay, im not exactly in a grumbling mood, but then u may wonder, so then what am i doing then? well, im actually keeping a record of my thoughts and feeling.  

so much time wasted trying to figure out my timetable. HOURS.

expo for the weekends. :S

schoool.

sigh sigh sigh.

im not sighing because of my results but rather of my friends result. ialways thought doing only parent and the person doing badly for exam would be sad over the poor result. i never knew knowing how my friend score for their exams could affect me this much. although i didnt do very well yet i know i ought to be thankful for what i had. just one mark lesser and my grade would have been MORE MORE Disappointed.

how does it feels to have your 8 person clique turning to a 3 and max 4. with only a maximum of 3 ( including me going to yr 2) and the rest. sigh. its either drop out or not being able to go yr 2. sighhh. i really want all of us to go yr 2 and study tgt. i really want.its really so demoralizing. the start of yr 1 has already being tough yet i thought as soon as yr 1 past i would just get used to it. but now everything chanes again. even with just all this limited information it already saddening me, pls dont give me a heartattack on my very first day of school.

im excited for school yet at the same time not very excited. disappointment, now my only hope ivan being able to go yr2 and not oversea. bahh he’s still hasnt know his result.

who will understand how im feeling. this doesnt feel like a school. sooooo demoralizing.

i just hope i dont have to feel this way everyday.but each time i just help but be reminded.