2 days ago, closed to midnight, i exploded, you were patient and nice enough with your words and mention you would change for the better.
and i would hear from you ytd, i did not. its okay. today, not as well.
after the explosion, i seem to care alittle less, less thoughts about you. but maybe im just so used to it.
im telling myself im just used to you. YES used to you.
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cimb youth challenge is getting me all excited, and alittle stress, but its good stress and its keep me going. It motivates me to read the news,news that would otherwise make me fall asleep. really, im never interested in news, especially the politically and economics upturn downturn and everything. okay, now you must wonder so why am i studying a business degree. it because of this. i hope its not too late now, but i just hope for the best.
this is called loving the things you used to hate. well and sometimes you just hate what you love. so as much as i little liking to justin bieber, his song” never say,never” rings in my head. well i’ve to admit, it true. :)
oh yes and i’ve registered and signed up for diving. oh well, like finally right. private manual @ BBDC (duh!) and basic theory test is 30/3/12. exactly 1.5 month to prepare.
and oh no, its friday again tmr, time can you move a little slower? cycled to mount faber, kent ridge park, hort park and henderson wave. *pat pat on my shoulder* cycled with west rider, and my aim is not be the first person to push the bike. i did it. but seeing people pushing bike demoralise me. this is what its said,your surrounding affects you. and its clementi to pungool tmr. is it 60km or 80km? well probably gonna do a half way journey only and go to gor house to sleep. just half way, i’ll make it through right? :) beside its less tedious compared to mount faber. again mount faber, aint so bad afterall :) lost 1/2kg YAY. :D
wow, i feel so much blogging out my thoughts. PHEW :) :) :)
travelling.
exploring the world, culture and YOURSELF.
:)
travelling, you’ve got me HOOKED.
im back for only one week and im cant wait for the next trip.
when will it be? i really cant wait.
basically anywhere is fine. travelling is my hobby! <3
so it was just last wednesday when i played wavehouse and it felt like ages, this is what holidays does to us, too much fun that we cant remember the fun we had ;p
friday , night cycling with a grp of peeps, with the people incredible nice and got me touched. they waited for the tortoise me. even a 8yr old boy from finland ride faster than ma e >< and he got a road bike with his dad having a very interesting top. ” good people go to heaven and bad people go to pattaya.” LOL so pattaya really sell such top?
and spend my weekend with my sister in law in law hospitalised and meeting stephany in gleneagles with her dad hospitalised as well, both underwent leg operation, and thankfully both is well ;)
and today yay, MBS with eeyer and boey! HAHAHA dont kill me :p skypark+swimming+lightstick frisbee+beautiful scenery :) its only after today trip, i came up with my ” blessings come in diff form” thankyou BOEYYY! ah BOEYY ( BOY);p well you used to be handsome anyway :p
okay,
as much as i really wanted to go for my USA trip,
but im left with just 2 weeks of wait, 13 days more of wait, but im losing my patience, i really dontknow why this is happening. i keep praying, hoping and wishing, and checking my email like never before.
and seeing my love ones, one bye one, going oversea, and me being struck in here, wait, it sucks more, knowing the plan you knew would work, when all things things would not go wrong, failed here. but well, im no longer yearning it anymore, in fact i’ve back up plan.
somehow, i spend a day researching on my back up plan. bali :) it was a supposely one month stay there, but looks like maybe i have to make it a 1.5month trip? and again, since it exceed one month, i have to apply VISA AGAIN >< but indo SHOULD be easier? well SHLD, i no longer dare to confirm anymore. in fact after a day of research, i was even dreaming about my trip there, doing my dive eduacation aint that bad as well, learning independent and fulfilling my dreams. at least i got a supportive family and not waste my holidays away.in fact, im imagining myself riding a motorbike in bali… and riding 20km/hr HAHHA, i never imagine myself riding a bike, and maybe i just have to.
and to think that if i cant go for my US trip and end up going bali, which is clearly indonesia, yet however im using USD and rupians, like LOL. going to one country yert using 2 currency. really look forward to what i can learn in the holidays.
shhhh.. im even secretly wishing i can go my bali trip instead =x
but mean while, i have to wait till mid june,before i can decide whats’ next.
lets move nearer to my dream.
wavehouse, surfing was awesome, lots of adrenaline rushhh. just as i need it.
thats when i learn the skill to relax, being all tense up and nervous would make all things go wrong. just relax :)
tried different stunt and even lying down on the big board. fell down and got a few minor cuts and bruise, but worth it :) my shorts drop. the water was so strong i couldnt get up. i could have nearly drown drinking too much water ;p laughed a little too loud. <—- just so me =x HAHAH.
held the rope, let go of the rope. got push off by the water. fell. neck ache.
wait, shhh.. my armpit is aching too. i wonder how that happen? im too embarrassed to tell others :p
its yeevonn graduation today, but well yeevonn got me one graduation ticket. WHEEE! <3 and also my darlingsss graduation. CONGRATS PEEPOS! :)
cant wait for night cycling on friday night, and wakeboarding! :D
so much of fun, but im alittle tired, too much fun and going out is making me tired. i need some ME time. :)
visa where are you? you’re taking a little too long, i know patience is virtue, but im running out of it. God, if you dont want me to go, why do you even allow me to know about this programme? can i know whats happening? can you just let me gooo? like P-L-E-A-S-E :(
i want…
to go bali… to dive, horse ride,camel ride, wakeboarding, surfing,white water rafting…
go shanghai, i’ve been seeing so much about this place, how fast it grows, what a modern state it is..
durian, stringray, crab.
and also maybe learn driving, though im very much lazy to.
but MOST OF ALL, I WANT TO GO USA NOWWWWWWWWWWWW. im “overstaying” in singapore.
toy wif me, toy toy toy,
let me wait,
say things u dont even mean it, what does approval means? what does appointment means?
wait wait wait.
and here goes the money sucker agent. just suck me dry.
i want to say ” i no longer want to go” but i deep now” i know i really want to go” i lost all the excitment. grumble grumble grumble.
i know grumbling and complaining doesnt change anything but i really HENG BU SHUAI LAHHHH.
its monday, and looking at the calendar, its 25th april, which also mean im one week from my first paper. yet i dont have the exam “feel”
so many things feel so unreal,
is may here soon? am i really going for the US trip? am i really going there alone? am i fulling one of the dreams that i never thought i would be able to achieve so soon? is exam really coming? where’s my confidence in taking the exam? how wil things be back home?
exams, may, US trip = uncertainty and unreal.
are they really happening?
but wait i need to settle so many things before i leave, let alone this week.
dental,skin doctor, trip planning( not forgetting esther and eunice would be leaving this thursday til 7may ><), pre-depature orientation(which i heard would be right spank in the middle of my exams. ZZZ sian,embassy interview for the very 3rd time.
im really hoping its not because of ben(VN) thats why the embassy giving us so much trouble. let alex,fee and me go please. what happened to the powerful singapore passport?
where is my RELC letter? meiling and jj got it last friday, pls let it come today, i WANT to go for my embassy interview tmr. sigh. 3rd interview. tsk why come the embassy word be trusted,whats more they told me at the first interview fee,alex and my visa are approved ><
damn you.
threaten me.
stupid agency.
just 2 sentences and i got mad. and u dont even bother apologizing, pls you’re in service industry.
you may have been good but just one fault and thats it.
pek chek. roar.
bang bang trying to be irritating by
using bb and iphone to sms me,
whatsapp and bbm me ALL at the same time. make me so busyy! hahaha.
bahhh. so everyday im reminded that you’ll be leaving. and tmr is finally the day =x SIGH. Emo elmo. yet i cant tell you i miss you. bcos i have no reason to do so anyway. it must have been hard on you too and i salute ur courage. 255 boxes that you have. its really ALOT. so brave so courageous, i wished i had the courage to do so too.
so maybe one day when i go europe i’ll see you there. will we? or will i just lose a friend? :(
